слишком красивоThis is a rambling meditation an indoctrination of the inspiration and the hurricane of thought that storms through my brain. This is a directionless path through the snowbanks and sand dunes of my mind, the archipelago of my dreams and the haphazard scattering of observations that fill all the empty spaces.
How do we manufacture such intimacy from such simplicity? How do our hands know to fit together? Do our minds speak in secret to ensure they lean the proper direction when we are blind for a kiss? Does your laughter fit on music lines and who composes the melody of our conversation? Will the balance ever balance out or will I be the heavier need in this see-saw, my feet in the dirt while yours hover in the sky? Do you dream of me, do you miss me when I’m gone? Will the weight of what we’ve gone through sink your heart or be the resistance you need to soar?
These are the thoughts that swirl through me like drops of blood in sinks of white.
The silent wonder when the snow falls and sunlight rides each flake to the earth and the curiosity as to if you saw it too. Why the brush of your foot against mine at night stops my heart and why I reach for you through the darkness of my slumber? Have you ever loved like this before or are we rewriting the rules as we go? How do you know the ways to calm me and silence the shake when I lose myself? How do you bring me home again?
Is home a place or is home a person or is home the creation of one soul out of two? Are you proud of me like I am proud of you? Did you feel the strain of waiting to meet in this life and is it our first lap through? How do you know when it’s tears I need and when laughter alone will do? Why do your lips have the power to move me and make mountains on my skin? Why do your ears hold your hair but still need my fingers to replace it when it falls? How do your eyes see me and what, what am I missing? The me you see is so much so much more than the me I thought I could be. How did you save me and more than how why? Do I save you like you save me and am I enough when you deserve so much more? How can I be the more you’ve earned because I am capable of anything. Do I say thank you for the love you’ve given, do I owe you my life? You can have all I am all I have without ever asking.
This is a rambling meditation a silent affirmation to One second of thought that transpires in the space between our lips parting and our eyes opening again. That one tiny moment of darkness before your light finds its way back in.
ночью подписалась на инстаграм (tylerknott), там тоже выкладывает
и начитывал кусочек a rambling man